Daphne Love Derby's Simple Starving to be Safe is my song..

 

 

because today ive set ourselves free..

 

 

I couldnt speak,

 

 

I cried in silence..

 

 

I am empty right now...

 

 

 

I could only express it through this words..

 

 

and a lovely  song..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

and my dying day is near..

 

the days are running thin,

 

say goodbye to beer, lights and cappuccino..

 

sunrise and laughter..

 

say goodbye to three words,

 

night sessions and moments..

 

say goodbye to your freedom,

 

sweet love and kisses.

 

 

theyre all inside where  the pain dwells in.

 

 

you are  here inside where the love is.. 

 

 

 

 

xXx

 

 

 

 

 

there's always a part of me telling me to stop,

 

and i could hear voices telling me to let go..

 

i wish i could bare this pain and make you stay

 

here with me,

 

but fate didn't let me..

 

and this is hopeless,

 

and life must go on..

 

i am drowning in this pool of loneliness,

 

im in tears right now

 

as i remember the  taste of that summer rain..

 

the warmth of your arms.. and the songs we used to sing.

 

i am drowning in this hopeless love,

 

and everytime i close my eyes to dream

 

all i could see is you..

 

 

only you.

 

 

 

 

 

ive been listening to Never Meant song by American football..

 

 

a certain part of the song which i like most..

 

 

 

 

you know, a  part of me died today..

 

 

its sunday and today's goin to be different, id be spending my time lying in bed while this headache is killing me.

But for this moment, let me just finish my coffee while writing yesterday's story..

 

Late afternoon, Nino decided to visit me since i told him im sick. I tried to get up even i was feeling dizzy, and i was able to talk to him. Outside the house we were sitting in our Kubo. We had this conversation about the top 5 countries we'd like to go to if given a chance.. and ended up going to different spots here in Philippines instead for nature tripping. I think that would be a great idea. I am dreaming to travel all the beautiful sceneries here in P.I. before landing to a foreign country.

We also talked about living life to the fullest, enjoying every bit of our youthful days, experiencing a different kind of adventure. Not exactly so extreme that we mightve break our legs or necks but just full fun escapade.

 

I got so many things i would like to do, and so much love to give..

 

 

I am just glad that he's the one i chose to spend my day with and not my  pillow.

 

 

 

he came from his SK meeting, so he arrived at 3pm. Im not mad at all..

just seeing him smile makes my day complete..

im wearing this big smile on my chest too. my heart says "cheeezee" ^^ everytime he's near (ang korni! haha)

he was in white lacoste polo shirt, jeans and his vans shoes. he looks great. haha! i suggested him to buy a pink shirt.. how cool is that? errr. he didnt like the idea though. nyaha. except if its stripey ones..

we discussed about the fanzine, the hairstyles and the house.

he wanted me to come along on their family trip so he went to talk to mom. good thing mom allowed me to go. awryt, 2 weeks from now and im on vacation with his family. cool. im pretty excited.

 

we headed to rob to eat snack and got ny fries and dips with honey mustard dip and a choco flavored pearl coolers from greenwich. Err.. pearlcoolers ddnt really taste  good as Friomix's does.

he wanted me to come along for shopping digicam this Wed. I'd love to but iv got some things to do. Wee.. talking about shopping, id like to buy that casio digicam before June. Just before Auntie arrives from US.. i'll cross my fingers for that. hurraee! Prepare yourself Nino, Auntie wants to meet u!

 

anyway this week's been tough. talking about all the emotions and what nots.. good thing i got friends..

 

i couldnt transfer my photos from my camcel..  fuck that bluetooth device, i should get memory card reader instead. i figured i got so many things on my shopping list.. i need to earn a thousand bucks a day! ^^ how's it possible? err.. (pahiram na lang sammshady, hardworking ka eh! haha kidding.)

 

do i have plans for the holy week? nah....

although abdul nvited me to join him on their kada swimming in Antipolo. As if pwede...

 

i miss my friends. pramis, i will go meet them after holy week!

 

right now, i miss Nino..

and his sweet embrace..  :(

 

(please be sunday tomorrow! please...)

 

 

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oh i took a photo of this tiny thing..

 

it fascinates me,

 

there were other deviants who made it  their favourite deviation.

 

now im starting to fall inlove with it..

 

the beauty.. and the art of photography.

 

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i found this while blog hopping,

well it make sense to me..

let me share this with you.

 

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my birthday's near.

i just wish everything will fall into right places.

i wish i could blow some candles..

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this afternoon, i went to school.

i got my diploma.. finally!

it's time to start m-o-v-i-n!

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listening to - something corporate - i woke up in a car

 

 

 

Nakakainip din paminsan minsan,

 

May oras na nakakabingi ang katahimikan,

 

Masarap namnamin ang hangin mula sa silangan..

 

Namimiss ang taong yun..

 

namimiss ko ang kanyang tawa,

 

ang musika nyang nakakapag-pangiti,

 

at ang mga mata nyang nangungusap.

 

Sabi nya..

 

 

 

Napangiti na lang ako..

 

Nanaginip na naman ba akO?

 

Hayy panaginip..

 

Makulay ka. 

 

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listening to - aquadays - daydreamer

 

Valentines Day ngayon, nasa Manila si Nino samantalang ako ay  nadito sa Batangas..

Normal na samin ang hindi nagdidiwang ng Valentines Day, tutal tuwing magkasama naman kami ay naipapadama na namin kung gaano namin kamahal ang isa't isa. Simpleng paguusap, konting tawanan, pagkain ng sabay at hawak ang kamay ko ay masaya na ako.. Ang importante nagkakasundo na kami, madaming nagbago samin dalawa mula noong June incident sa buhay namin. Mas naging bukas ang aming isip at mas lalo pang lumalim ang samahan. Lalo nyang ipinadadama sakin na mahal nya ako at ganon din ako sa kanya. Mas naintindihan namin ang differences namin dalawa.. (drama na!)

 

Ang Valentines Day? kung san madami nagde-date sa mall at maraming flowers kung san san.

 

Kanina umalis ako, kasama ko ang hipag ko. Nagpunta kami sa parlor. Hay... Since wala ang aming mga mahal sa buhay kami nalang dalawa ang nag-date. hehe. Ang tagal din namin sa parlor, dry na kasi hair ko. Ganun din sya, ang malas naman, pagtapos namin sa parlor, biglang buhos ng ulan. Kainis, wala pa naman kaming dala na payong. Hindi kasi namin akalain na uulan. Dumeretso kami sa supermarket para mamili ng gagamitin para sa fruit salad.. at dun narin kami kumain ng dinner. Kakasawa na talaga mga kainan sa rob, sana pala nag Tokyo Tokyo na lang kami. Errrr...

8pm na kami umuwi, ang aga ng closing sa Robinsons. Haha! at umuulan pa rin. Feeling ko tuloy magkakasakit ako dahil naulanan kami kanina.

 

Kakapagod din...

 

May bago pala akong natutunan sa Adobe Image Ready. Haha! Kakaaliw..

 

 

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listening to - happydeadman - dream

feeling - super pagod.. err..

 

here's a nice place for you and me..

 

in my mind..

 

he's on my mind,

 

i stared right through him but he didnt seem to notice,

 

i was in your dreams, but you didnt see me..

 

i was hiding behind the walls..

 

i didnt see it coming..

 

i am falling apart.

 

never thought id lose it,

 

the magic..

 

i blew it away.

 

i closed my eyes,

 

giving up..

 

i am giving up

 

 

goodbye my friend, goodnight..

 

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its not actually me who's writing,

oh well, its the otherside of me...

 

Happy Valentines!

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listening to Silverstein - My Heroine

 

mood: not in the mood for ah!-so-romantic poetry